Wednesday, October 13, 2010

falling in love

I got a chill and giggled a little as I walked out of work this morning and snuggled up tight in Dan's jacket. It is soo fall. Adorable ceramic jack-o-lantern and two mason jars filled with candy corns&pumpkins on the coffee table, pumpkin chocolate chip cookie dough in the freezer, and a scarecrow on the front door.

Tonight is my last night of work and I'm off for six nights. Fantastic? I feel so free as those big sliding doors open for me as they anticipate my stride. I know I don't have to come back for a week... The world is mine. But I can't help but think about the people I take care of. The precious man who is dying of terrible, horrible, evil, painful cancer that is spreading with every breath he takes... always asks me how I am doing after I ask him how he is. "I'm doin pretty good... how are you doin?" And his wife who sleeps in that crooked hospital chair at his side night after night, never leaving his side. I will never forget him. I can whole-heartedly say that I love him.

School is overwhelming. I can do it and I'm doing well, but I'm stressed. I don't like that. I like to enjoy my time and have plenty of it for those things that fill me. I want to be able to have all the time I want to prepare my lessons for my young women and do projects around the house and cook fabulous meals and go out with the missionaries and blog til my hearts content and photography my life and make cards and just be me! I am going to petition to switch to part-time instead of full-time. Why the rush?

Dan and I are in love. With eachother. With our church. With Heavenly Father. With our apartment. With our families. With candy corns. With skip-bo. With our snuggly warm bed. With prayers. With texting. With photoshoots. With adventures. With Whitlock [our plant]. With our future. With our dreams. With our life.

It's what you make it. We make it happy and playful and full of love.

:]


7 comments:

  1. love the love. love fall always. love you being freee! love you

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  2. Oh can I say in a word that would express the sweet, warm, content feelings your mother feels inside as I read about your life and who you are, who you have become and the amazing soul I have been so privileged to mother. There just isnt a word for it. Thank you honey, if I died today, I would feel complete in my life, for I have felt a small piece of Heavenly Father's joy as a parent.

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  3. I would love to see pictures of these dear people who you are serving and have made an impact on your life. Maybe you could take a picture of those special ones, that would be a priceless thing to make a sympathy card for them and have a picture to incorporate with the card to their loved ones. Just a thought. You are touching so many lives honey. What a blessing you are to all you meet!

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  4. I love you Rachael. Thank you for making my day today. And thank you for being in love with your plant Whitlock. : )

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  5. so cute!!!! i love the pumpkin. i need some autumn/halloween/thanksgiving decorations... or any decorations.

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  6. YAY! Have a great six day vacation! You definitely deserve it :)

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  7. Oh Rachael, I love you! Thank you for teaching me again what really is important about life. I could use a dose of you each day..Love ya, Aunt Judy

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