at this very moment...

this very moment was one of my best moments, ever. laying in bed with my two boys in the middle of the afternoon. jude had just woken up from a half-hour wimpering in bed (not) nap and he very happily joined us in bed. first he came right up to dan's face like he had the intent to give a kiss. then he burped right on dan's cheek. it was the cutest &funniest. (you understand if you have a baby so adorable that you think even their burping is cute). dan and i gave each other a little kiss and jude did not want to be left out. he went in slowly and put his face on ours, just holding it there, knowing something special must be going on. we then looked up at him and he gave me a big open mouth kiss and just held it there for a good five seconds. then looked us at both and dad asked for his, he leaned in and gave me another one. then he sat back up and dan got threee beautiful little kisses. then another one for mommy. then another one for daddy. he has no idea how much we love, need, &live for those kisses!

We picked some carrots out of our garden last night!

Jude has been saying "mom mom mom mama" all day, more than he ever has, and it just melts my heart to no end!

this very moment...

I'm thankful.

First of all, for my family. They are all that matters, now and eternally. I am working on finding contentment with my life and what I have. I am so blessed and I want to work on making the absolute best with what I have, to make my little life, my little family, and my little world my little heaven, making heartfelt memories and savoring our time together from morning til night. 

A quote I have always loved is, 

"Be happy. This is your life."

I have been learning lately that happiness comes from within. It is independent of the circumstances around me. The things that bring me that happiness are unchanging and eternal, so no temporary challenge should be able to shake that. 

I love my husband.

I love my child.

I love my life.

The end!

this very moment...

I never want to forget, even for a minute, what a loving, sweet, wonderful, forgiving, and patient husband I have. Heavenly Father knew I really needed my husband to be all those things when he led me to my hubby. Dan is a wonderful example to me of forgiving immediately... it amazes me every time. He forgives and doesn't even hold a grudge. He is beautiful. And wonderful. And sweet. And that smile when he is really relaxed and happy and content is my absolutely favorite. Unfortunately, I don't see it enough with this insanely stressful medical school thing...

I

love

you

Danny!!!

Thank you for loving me always.

this very moment...

I am thankful that Jude fits so perfectly on his daddy's neck and sat contently there for a few minutes. I am thankful that he gave Dan five real, lean-down-for-a-smooch kisses in a row as Dan was trying to discretely get my attention so I would see without disturbing our little pecking prince (who has never kissed like that... I think somebody missed their Daddy...). I am thankful for these little, carefree moments in life that make the harder, not-so-perfect moments so worth it. And even if I didn't have a picture of this one, I would always have one right in that little pocket on the inner side of my heart.

the kisses looked like this :)

this very moment [yesterday...]

I looked over at Dan as I was driving him to school and he had a little grin on his face. I said

"What are you thinking about?" 

"Oh, nothing..."

"Tell meee!"

"I can't!"

"Come on...."

"I saw that flower shop and was thinking how I wish I could buy you a whole bouquet of flowers. Then I thought that maybe they could just give me the scraps..."

I'm sure I squealed. Then I unbuckled my seat belt, climbed up onto my seat, and gave him the biggest hug ever the rest of the way there. He doesn't even really have to get me flowers, just catching him in a sweet thought like that is enough for me. I love so much how it brought a smile to his face. :)

this very moment...

weedwacking, wall decor planning, church-cleaning, dancing honky-tonk to dixie land delight in the kitchen, kisses from our boy, and cookies for breakfast.

(heaven)

kickick.

yard work is very entertaining.

and a sneak peek of our craigslist beauties!!! well worth the wait. :)

this very moment...

I am thankful for the mini moments I get with both of my babies together, however fleeting they may be. Earlier Dan practiced his newly acquired pulse and blood pressure skills on Jude and I. Jude was very patient and understood it was for educational purposes. My BP was healthy... phew. Thanks Dr. Dan, you're the best.

this very moment.

This is making me indescribably happy right now. They are my favorites.